haix..

me n qs brk edi lorh..
we 2 relationship jus las 4 1month n 29 days onli..

i reli dunno y..

after brkup wif him..

felt like i also gt a bit like him lu..

bt nw i also dun wn cpl edi..

i felt me n him nw b fren also veli hapi..

ws say he stil gt love me..

mayb gua..

he cpl wif me also his 1st love i hurt him too much edi..

haix..

~sorry~so sry to him..

bt i felt me n him reli cant continue edi..

our relationship too bad..
n goin to holiday edi..
relationship will bcome more worst..

so jus end ba..

nw aaron love me..
i reli duno hw to do..

yesterday he gt accident i dun blieve him..

i reli hope he cn giv up me..

cuz i gt 75% sure i wont accept him at the end..

i reli dun hav any feel tat i wn cpl..

yesterday his fren romeo n his bro use his phone cal me..

ask me many question..

n tel me aaron cry la..

bla bla bla..

n ask me gt love aaron??

wn cpl wif him..?

many tis type of question.

bt i felt nw sure many ppl thought i veli bad edi..

make till aaron like tis..

jus like his bro n his fren romeo..

sure kep thinkin i hurtin aaron edi..

other ppl sure think i plyin aaron..

haix..

yesterday i edi tel aaron le..

at night tat time cal him giv up me..

we 2 argue...

bt tis morning he stil dun wn giv up..

haix..

i reli dun wn hurt him..

hope he dun wn continue le..

i reli wait 4 his 1 word..

i wn he say tat he giv up me edi..

dun waste my time on me edi le..

i reli nt thinkin to cpl..

pls..

i dun wn hurt any1..

brk season??

haiz...may thing happen lorh.. angie n aaron gt prb, chan n crystal also gt prb..haiz..wat is tis brk season?suan le ba..

misz ya..^^

yesterday no skul..damn miss him.. haiz.. stay at house so borin.. wat also cannt do.. at nught me cry edi.. 1st time cry cause him.. me thik bac me n him 1 month 4 days edi..nth special jus 2gether like even a fren also nt.. haiz.. at skul no talk, at home no sms, on9 no saw hgim..cause his mum dun let him on9 edi, miz him no his pic..haiz..me wat also cannt do.. reli suffer when wif him..2days at skul=mon n tues wat also no talk jus say bb n u wan go where.. haiz.. tat all,, me didn felt he bad wif me..even he nt always talk wif me,bt me felt he gud to me wor..cause no bully me tis la tat.. jus he cant giv me things tat i reli expect..me didn scare anythin jus scare me cannt tahan edi then go brk wif him..me reli goin to cannt tahan edi..bt wat cn i do..haiz.jus giv him sumtime ba..me also dun wan brk wif him de..

n3w pic...~~~

jealous..~dissapointed..~

2day when las period tat time is pj then me n ws too borin so go jalan-jalan lo..
then saw aaron aaron tel me qishen mayb wil come me reli hapi bt me koe tat nt real..
reli hard to belive if he reli come..
then when go bac to bac door tat time brandon n christine so sweet..
ws gt ahhon, angie gt aaron, xinyi even nt yet cpl wif wenjiun , wenjiun also teman her..
me alone..he no come..
me saw them also wil jealous de la.
.me also a human ma..
all so sweet me..
reli cant tahan edi la...
wan cry le.. y he like tis de..
pls try to giv me wat i wan la... sad lo..
haiz..

heart goin to break edi..!!

Nowadays,less talk wif him edi..
we 2 jus say bb n tat all...
no say other thing le..
my heart reli goin to brk in half edi..
i sure tat i love him bt..
i dunno wat his feeling..
reli hard to understand..
i also felt like gt some type of walls or wat block me n him...
reli reli hard to contact..
me reli suffer~ i reli dunno he gt act me as his gf or nt..
me in his heart is wat location..?
at top? at bottom? best fren? girlfren? fren? enemy or wat..??
if reli continue like tis me reli goin to brk wif him edi..
jus like wasting my time..
bt me dun wan to hurt him..
tat time when me jus cpl wif him..
me think me n him de relationship wil las long..
bt nw me dun think so..
if he reli like me then prove out la..
me reli dun wan to brk wif him..
he treat me reli gud, no bully me..
bt the only prb is..
he didn prove out n didn talk wif me..
we 2 oledi no phone le..
stil no talk.. aaron cal me go talk to him..
nt boys find me talk de mie..?
y me goin to find him..?
even me wif him also diam diam de...
sumtime me also felt like when me is lonely or sad..
he nt bside me de..
pls la.. me reli dun wan to hurt u.. n dun wan continue hurt myself also..~

nowadays so many things happen...

nowadays so many thing happen... crystal de thing..haiz when i see crystal like tat me veli sad lo....y suddenly everything change le..
wk....??? jun ...? all tis things thing make me so fan.....wat happen...i 2day suddenly write blog sure bcause something de lo..tat xboyfren lo.. haiz suddenly so misz him le.. long time no so hapi wif him le...2day me, ws, peic , crystal, chan, ch**h, tian liang, han fong ply gum.. hah so hapi lo.. me put gum at chan tianliang n ch**h there..haha but they also put bac me..some kena hands some kena FACE lol...damn..me n him 2day is ply mos hapi de..... long time no so hapi le... but i put at his hands he also no reaction de la..act me nth...suan le...also 习惯le...

qs veli good lo... help me.. but aaron say jus got 1 way to help onli..tat is couple wif qs then tell wk n jun i couple le..make them 死心...then i everyday nid to walk talk wif him lo..but i dunno wan accept or not... aaron n qb also callme accept..haiz so fan.. now jus ws aaron qb qs koe onli...cant leh other people koe le.... if not all plan banish le.. haiz

so sad lo... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!烦 ..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

am i invisible...?

2day when i was going to canteen ot buy food n go out tat time i saw u sitting there chatting with chan they all... but when i saw u i smile at u ... but u didn do anything also... jus turn bac... jus like everything also didn saw...haizz still say wan b fren.. now anything also cannot do... from tat day we broke i oledi dissapear liao... i noe .. so i also no need bazir my masa smile at u... jus act like u dun live in my WORLD.... now everything also no use liao... i veli thank you 4 all my fren help.. they help me a lot..hehe.. i think i veli lucky got so many good fren... but tat day i suddenly foght with ws cause xinyi but not until 1 hour we b bac good again..hehe..~ me n her always go tepi the toilet there go conteng the wal..haha.. there is our blog liao lo..... wakaka
Fri3nDs..4 3Va~>.<

16 days liao~

16 dayz liao after we broke...i noe i still likeu i cannot do anything jus can like u secara diam-diam...
cause everything cannot start over again....tat days i go jusco with my frenzz i suddenly rmb u again... at the cinema there i rmb wat u do to me when we r watching movie... at the public phone there i rmb again tat las time i go with u u call ur mum m ply the phone when we r going bac home..haiz...~ jus can rmb.. 2days when moral relieve i suddenly think bac again...i think tat if me n u never broke mayb everytime when i was going home got u teman me.. when i hear about my fren couply thing n saw brandon n christine walking home...me damn jealous.. haizz
after i break got 2 people like me... haizz i make myself clear i noe tat i wont accept them de...
i ask ahhon to tell them tat i wont accept them de.. call them dun bazir masa liao.. but they 2 still dun listen haizz watever lo... nvm ur own choice la...~

dun understand my feeling...

haizz.....dunno wat my feeling..oledi broke liao still miss him..hope can sms him..haizz me go where also got remember him de..my house, go buy ice blended,xin yi house, perpustakaan, kantin..brandon house, dewan..haizz wat wrong am i...stupid me..when saw him veli hapi but..haizzz please stop thinking him la...

unlucky...de m3...~~

veli unlucky haizz....the when the 6th day after we break my diary fell into the longkang..haizz i felt like everythings gone...so i write new things again i still remember something tat i rite at the diary...haizz i 2days didn saw him oledi...2day hari bicara akedemik i also didn saw him.. then brandon ask wei yan y chuah didn come i heard liao..chuah headache..haizz y i so care about him..we also broke liao lo..tat days chan tell me y dun wan talk to chuah chuah tell chan he still want to b frenzz with me... haizz if he wan come talk to me la.... how can i talk to him.. when i break with him tat time i veli hurt..if wan me say 1st..sure dunno wan say wat when saw him de la..haizz... chan say he reli dunno me n him doing wat frenz onli ma..jus talk la...but i reli dunno wan talk wat to him..haizz

everything change....~

now everything change liao.....i reli never think tatthe second couple broke up is me n him....now wat i gonna do...i sure i wont aceppt a new love nowadays cause me n him jus broke up.... i really feel uncomfortable now he not my bf liao...haiz everytime think of him...tat day when i come out his mom car still there...i thinking wat his mom wan me to do...i already broke up with chuah liao...jus like wat he wan but wat he still wan me do..i hate his mom... wat he wan jus tell me la... dun do like tat to me..pls la..i beg him..

everything jus ended suddenly n sadly....~!!!

2day i noe tat he wan broke up with me.... when i noe i very suprise but i ready to accept all this thing so i didn cry... i really really really suprise...i cant believe he do this... i really angry at him but no0t sad... but y i didn blame him 4everything i jus angry...every friends wan help me i noe they good at me but i got my own decision...then when i going to pjk tat time i tell xin yi all things.. she also support me..all my frenzz support me...i noe i also wan cry liao...tq all my frenzz..

when i jus come out from the classroom i saw him plying badminton liao...suddenly i got a question about him...y wan break up liao...still can so happy de..haizz..my feeling is jus flat till zero~then when i go down to put my bag, all my fren oledi call me go tell him tat i wan broke with him liao...but i didn hav any ready to say all these things...after a while when i saw he with tian liang tat time igo n find him liao... then suddenly i dunno wat to say... i veli sad tat time..jus like wan to cry liao... reli reli wan to cry liao...haizz~is veli hard to let me say out tatword...jus like got some1 force me so i say liao....but jus say 1 word onli: break up......( in a small voice)n then all he say make me angry... but ws come n help me.. i saw my fren say like tat ....then i call my fren go away liao...aftertat he say something to brandon n tian liang.... then brandon n tian liang come n find ws n tell her something ws angry n say them lo..haizz ~then ws tell me wat he say...i feel like i didn angry him liao after ws tell me all things...

the 1st say wan couple wan is him...the 1st say wan end wan also him...(i jus cant stop thinking about tis)when i go home i cry... then i take my phone out n read all the massage he send to me las time.. i didn delete.. i change the massage folder name to(Sw33t M3M0Ri3s)...haizzz i sure i stil like him de..i still like him.... but everything end liao... nth can save liao~

i hope i still can be fren with him...i still will giv him a birthday present when his birthday...i felt like something from part of me jus missing...

something bad tat suprise me...~

chan 2day say he wan tell me something... he ask me dun wan2 cry...then i promise him..thenhe tell me tat chuah tell him tat he no felt with me liao...but y he dont broke with me ....i felt veli qi guai...haizz.....then chan ask me y i avoid chuah when i see him..then i tell him everything he ask me...i als odunno wat chuah thinking....when chan tell me all these thing, i fell like i wan to cry liao... but idunno y i no cry...i no mayb is chuah fault but i didn blame him... wat am i thinking...???!!! i now also dunno who i am...!!!i angry at myself with no reason...haizz...after all tis thing i think tat i wan break with him liao....but i dunno y i couldn say out i even think also never think about it...haizz..i feel like suddenly no mood liao...but wat my choice...?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

didn see him..~

2day n yesterday when i going home i didn see him also ..i veli scared he angry..... i wan say bye 2 him but id didn saw him....2day when i going home i also never see him he also didn wait 4 me...i dunno how?i sure i like him after i couple with him i sure....but now i think the problem is with me i dunno also .....suddenly i think like tat..haizz